I’ve been lucid dreaming a lot lately, but I notice that it’s always a secondary dream. I’m aware of my meta dreaming and have been willfully playing with changing colors, altering physics, etc… and I’m even getting better at NOT immediately jumping to sex! One of the best exercises has been memorizing rooms, going to a different room, and then working to transmute the second room into the first piece by piece. Textures are way harder to change than colors. Strangely, I always fake wake up back into my first dream which I consistently mistake for reality before I return to real reality. That is, I know the second layer of a dream is a dream and seem to function as a willful agent in that space, but have much more difficulty recognizing the first layer as dream.
Interestingly, I never fake wake up back into the bed in which I currently really am. If I’m really in Boston, I’ll fake wake up into my bed in Virginia or Maryland. In Ohio, I woke up into the Boston T, “waking up” around Copley and realizing that I’d missed my stop. The stress in combination with a distorted roundness of the platform that seemed unfamiliar triggered an actual and confused awakening into bed.